“You’re only as old as you feel”, and “With age, comes wisdom”.

OK. Let’s just get this out of the way. I’m just so tired of hearing from people. So I’m going to let it lose once and for all. What is the big deal with turning 30? God forbid you are not at least married by that time. I think it is just something society has placed on women. Kill yourself now! You’re 30 and not married? There is no more hope for you. It is such bullsh*it! I think women will continue to dread 30 until they realize they are NOT defined by a husband or babies. There are so many opportunities for us women now; we should just live our lives to the fullest no matter what age we are! If you're marry and unhappy, then what's the point? As long as you're happy that's all it matters most. So married or unmarried...who cares!! So stop whining to me about it, cause you need to learn how to face it not me.

Yes, change is never easy, regardless of age! I thought turning 30 was going to be a devastating blow. I’m just 30, so what? So what? 30 is a big deal? Unfortunately I don’t know why? I have had difficulties with birthdays in the past. Whether it’s 25, 27 or 29= at each of these birthdays I did some moping around and not much soul searching.

For whatever reason, but I can honestly say that I've had no sudden realization that it's time to rework my life, to 'retake control' or make 'improvements'. I decided to stop ‘freaking out’ and evaluate myself and my life. I mean, sure, there are things in my life that need improvements and definite ‘rework’ that could be used (and I’m working on it), but isn’t that an ongoing process throughout one’s entire life.

I have to say that 2008 has been a great year for me so far! A lot of self-improvement as I’m learning a lot within myself and hopefully by this time next year I’ll come back a much happier true me. So you might ask what I’ve learning so far. Well, I’ve learned how to compromise without compromising myself in order to make life easier or happier for other people. I've accepted that I am capable of doing whatever I put my mind to. And have reaped the rewards and benefits to prove it. I've learned that I don't have to be perfect. As long as I am healthy that shows through and defines me more than anything. I’ve learned that people you love will hurt you. You need to make peace with it, and move on. After all, you get to see their true side. Most of all I've learned to relish my family, my mom and dad and siblings. Those people are invaluable.

Now that I've turned 30, I'm no longer afraid of what's life has lies ahead. =) What matters is that we make the most of the journey?