What was I thinking?

Hmmm.. It’s been hectic these past few months. I’ve decided to go back to school. For some odd stupid reason; I thought I would be able to handle 5 classes, work fulltime and help my sister plan her wedding. However, things never goes as planned. Besides not having enough sleep-I’ll be lucky if I get 5 hours daily. Sister turned into a mini “bridezella” à drove me crazy, had to drop one of the 5 classes and then found out an ex-coworker passed away. Basically I’m emotionally drained and tired from everything!! God! What the hell was I thinking? Superwomen?

Stilll Learning...

What a month, so glad it’s over! There are so much to write about and yet I find myself tight on time. Gosh, $ 700 for book and intutions- if it wasn't for ebay and half.com it would have been $700 for books instead of $450, another $400 for the rose gold w/ little pacts of diamond ring as a birthday present for myself, Jane’s bach and gift $260+, eating out and Clothing $ 350+ etc. I can’t believe I’ve spent over 2+k this month and that’s not including rent, gas, cable and ebay. =( I gotta stop this! I could have went on a trip, then again it was all worht it.

OK! I have to admit that going to school and working both full-time is really hard. Yes, I dropped my English class already simple b/c too much work, I was spenting about 10-12 hours weekly for this class and it’s killing me. So here I am, talking 4 classes this semester instead of 5. (So what if I tranfer and graduate a semester late.)

My fellow students are so young and they seemed so immature; while some seemed to have trouble -others seemed to take it in stride. =/ I’m in between. However it so much better, though I’m have never study so much in my life. I am so much more focused than I was when I was younger. I have a clear goal and a real reason to go. Joanne’s right, “Just do it! Think of it this way, it'll be much easier now than if you wait even longer.” As with many things in life, the toughest part is thinking about doing it.

Ps.

On a lighter note, I'm actually getting 5 hous sleep each night.

I told my boss that I no longer could stay for over time, he understand.

gtg . time for bed.. =)

back to school !

I hate being stressed out! It’s been crazy lately! Oh God! there's so much to do in life and it just feel like there's no time to do it. I decided to go back to school and just get a BA. I regret so much for not getting one, hopefully I could transfer next semester and should be done 1.5 year or 2 at most. I know I know, 5 classes is a lot for a semester, a full time job and helping Jane plan her wedding. I know it’s worth it at the end!

After I graduate, I can finally quit this job and relax a bit. I want to take 60 days off and maybe go to Europe or something? I don’t know yet? =( a bit sad that I’m not going anywhere for vacation this year. Hopefully I’ll get to go to Egypt or Taiwan next Sept. So yes! I’m saving up- so far its only $450:my goal is $2500.

Oh a happier notes, Britney did great at the VMA! Everyone is finally giving this poor girl a break, then again she’s

Travel request cancel.

What a year! All my travel plans just went out the door. It's been a terrible year for traveling. If you know me, I love to travel! There's something about traveling that fills my soul w/ pleasure. First Hawaii and now the New York road trip, usually I thought I would be really upset, but to my surprise- nothing really. Things happen and after what I went through for Hawaii- I figure there's no point of getting upset. Instead I decided to go by myself next Spring, since I wanted to go somewhere myself that doesn't need a car. If someone decides to join me that's fine too. If not, this will be an expensive trip due to lodging, but I deserve it and I can't wait! Especially after reading "Shopaholic Takes Manhattan", I won't be like Becky and go all crazy w/ labels, but I do want to check out at least one sample sale. Ok, I'm hooked on Sophie Kinsella's Shopaholic series. Its just so relaxing and next thing you know, I'm done reading the book. I'm finding bits and pieces of myself in Becky.

Ok I’m not doing so well on my diet. I keep forgetting to jog down what I ate. I need to go buy a mini notebook or so something. Other than that, I've honestly decided to give school another try. So I thought I was only 1-2 classes away from transferring, instead I need 4 including the stock market classes = possible 5 classes this semester-depending if the stock market class is still on. I know it's a lot, but I just wanted to transfers ASAP. Basically next semester I'm going to have no life, not that I really have one now. There are a lot of regrets why I didn’t take school serious. People say school is not for everyone, which I agree completely. Oh well, hopefully 2.5 years from now, I'll be graduating.

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Could you pass the latest citizenship test?

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Relaxing weekend !

=) It's amazing what a good weekend can do you for your soul, you know? The weather has been delightful this weekend…low humidity, nightly lows around 60s and daytime highs in the 80s, plus lots of sun! I spend Friday the 13th w/ my sister and niece at Great Mall. A little shopping, dinner at Dave and Buster, then the movies, afterward we stayed at DayInns in Milpitas. Nothing fancy, but it wasn’t bad. Yes, we could have easily saved some $$ and drove home in 45 mins. However I didn’t want to drive back to San Jose flea market the next say, beside gas ain’t cheap. We went to the San Jose Flea Market on Saturday and basically took our time. Can’t belive that it’s been almost 9 years since I‘ve last been there. I didn’t buy much, just browsing around. Somehow buying junks doesn’t seem as appealing as before.

We were planning to go to Valley Fair, since it’s been almost 5 years and I’ve heard it changed a lot- then again I hate shopping mall on the week ends, the lines are just too long. So we just went home and relax. I don’t know when I have had a more enjoyable or relaxing weekend!

=) I definitely need to do this again!

My "aha" moment !

What the hell is wrong w/ me? What happen to that Cindy who craves changes and love to learn?
Some people are afraid of change b/c changes can be difficult and scary. Change should be looked upon as a good thing; unfortunately many of us prefer the safe unchanging option. I never thought I was one of these people that were afraid of changes. I soon realized that somewhere along the way, I gotten so comfortable w/ life itself that I didn’t accept any changes that came my way nor search for any new changes. All I do is worry or whine about, making excuses for my lazy ass- basically wasting a lot time. I don’t want to be stuck now as I am for the rest of your life.

I know life is change; I need to welcome changes and expect changes. It is bound to happen. Whether good, bad, difficult, destructive, even change in our daily routines. So instead of waiting for changes to happen, I’m going to make the changes happen. I’m not saying it’s going to be easy quick fix. I know I’m going to face challenges but I will not let this paranoia grip my life, I’m going deal with change as it comes.

OK, I know this is weird. My "aha" moment was when I was in the shower 2 months ago, it just hit me that "life isn't as serious as my mind makes it out to be" as Eckhart mentioned in his book. (I still need to find time to read the book.) I had heard all my life, oh it's not that serious but I have never heard it put this way and now this makes so much sense to me. I have a way of making things much more than they are in my head. Everything just clicked that very moment and all I can say is wow! Wow! Can’t believe a book can have such positive outlook. (Don’t take life so seriously. Lighten up. Be easy on yourself. Smile more. Laugh often. =) If not, all I can say F*** it.)