Relaxing weekend !

=) It's amazing what a good weekend can do you for your soul, you know? The weather has been delightful this weekend…low humidity, nightly lows around 60s and daytime highs in the 80s, plus lots of sun! I spend Friday the 13th w/ my sister and niece at Great Mall. A little shopping, dinner at Dave and Buster, then the movies, afterward we stayed at DayInns in Milpitas. Nothing fancy, but it wasn’t bad. Yes, we could have easily saved some $$ and drove home in 45 mins. However I didn’t want to drive back to San Jose flea market the next say, beside gas ain’t cheap. We went to the San Jose Flea Market on Saturday and basically took our time. Can’t belive that it’s been almost 9 years since I‘ve last been there. I didn’t buy much, just browsing around. Somehow buying junks doesn’t seem as appealing as before.

We were planning to go to Valley Fair, since it’s been almost 5 years and I’ve heard it changed a lot- then again I hate shopping mall on the week ends, the lines are just too long. So we just went home and relax. I don’t know when I have had a more enjoyable or relaxing weekend!

=) I definitely need to do this again!

My "aha" moment !

What the hell is wrong w/ me? What happen to that Cindy who craves changes and love to learn?
Some people are afraid of change b/c changes can be difficult and scary. Change should be looked upon as a good thing; unfortunately many of us prefer the safe unchanging option. I never thought I was one of these people that were afraid of changes. I soon realized that somewhere along the way, I gotten so comfortable w/ life itself that I didn’t accept any changes that came my way nor search for any new changes. All I do is worry or whine about, making excuses for my lazy ass- basically wasting a lot time. I don’t want to be stuck now as I am for the rest of your life.

I know life is change; I need to welcome changes and expect changes. It is bound to happen. Whether good, bad, difficult, destructive, even change in our daily routines. So instead of waiting for changes to happen, I’m going to make the changes happen. I’m not saying it’s going to be easy quick fix. I know I’m going to face challenges but I will not let this paranoia grip my life, I’m going deal with change as it comes.

OK, I know this is weird. My "aha" moment was when I was in the shower 2 months ago, it just hit me that "life isn't as serious as my mind makes it out to be" as Eckhart mentioned in his book. (I still need to find time to read the book.) I had heard all my life, oh it's not that serious but I have never heard it put this way and now this makes so much sense to me. I have a way of making things much more than they are in my head. Everything just clicked that very moment and all I can say is wow! Wow! Can’t believe a book can have such positive outlook. (Don’t take life so seriously. Lighten up. Be easy on yourself. Smile more. Laugh often. =) If not, all I can say F*** it.)

“You’re only as old as you feel”, and “With age, comes wisdom”.

OK. Let’s just get this out of the way. I’m just so tired of hearing from people. So I’m going to let it lose once and for all. What is the big deal with turning 30? God forbid you are not at least married by that time. I think it is just something society has placed on women. Kill yourself now! You’re 30 and not married? There is no more hope for you. It is such bullsh*it! I think women will continue to dread 30 until they realize they are NOT defined by a husband or babies. There are so many opportunities for us women now; we should just live our lives to the fullest no matter what age we are! If you're marry and unhappy, then what's the point? As long as you're happy that's all it matters most. So married or unmarried...who cares!! So stop whining to me about it, cause you need to learn how to face it not me.

Yes, change is never easy, regardless of age! I thought turning 30 was going to be a devastating blow. I’m just 30, so what? So what? 30 is a big deal? Unfortunately I don’t know why? I have had difficulties with birthdays in the past. Whether it’s 25, 27 or 29= at each of these birthdays I did some moping around and not much soul searching.

For whatever reason, but I can honestly say that I've had no sudden realization that it's time to rework my life, to 'retake control' or make 'improvements'. I decided to stop ‘freaking out’ and evaluate myself and my life. I mean, sure, there are things in my life that need improvements and definite ‘rework’ that could be used (and I’m working on it), but isn’t that an ongoing process throughout one’s entire life.

I have to say that 2008 has been a great year for me so far! A lot of self-improvement as I’m learning a lot within myself and hopefully by this time next year I’ll come back a much happier true me. So you might ask what I’ve learning so far. Well, I’ve learned how to compromise without compromising myself in order to make life easier or happier for other people. I've accepted that I am capable of doing whatever I put my mind to. And have reaped the rewards and benefits to prove it. I've learned that I don't have to be perfect. As long as I am healthy that shows through and defines me more than anything. I’ve learned that people you love will hurt you. You need to make peace with it, and move on. After all, you get to see their true side. Most of all I've learned to relish my family, my mom and dad and siblings. Those people are invaluable.

Now that I've turned 30, I'm no longer afraid of what's life has lies ahead. =) What matters is that we make the most of the journey?

No more bad news! My heart can't take it...

What the F*** ! It’s just bad news after another.
=( I was just out of it today, I didn’t even go to class this morning.

About 1:00am this morning, my sister Jane and I witness 2 guys running away from an accident. We called the ambulances and there were 3 guys helplessly on the ground, my heart just….. =( I just can’t believe this is happening! Omigod, the minute they pulled out the white sheets I just knew it! The guy whom I was afraid to go close too, b/c he was bleeding.

Everything was clear out by 5am, as I’m lying in bed at 6 in morning. I couldn’t help crying. What the hell! How could this happen! Seem surreal.


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=( Way too Stress to work! I should have sue !

Shit! Hawaii trip is cancel. I’m so stress that I call off work. I've been so stress out that I lost 5 pounds <-- I guess that's the only good news this week.

I search and search for almost 1.5 hours online looking for affordable airlines, but the fares are just too costly for the other 4, since it’s only 2 weeks ago.. I’m been on the phone for nearly 2 hours calling all the reservations to cancel. Well, a hour for the tickets I recently purchase on American airlines (not even 2 days) is non-refundable but they are willing to give me credit for a year and there’s a $130 cancellation/ booking fee per ticket= $390. It took almost a hour, mainly because I couldn’t understand the Indian lady, but she was nice though.

The car rental luau was nice enough to cancel within minutes and the hotel charged me $19.95 not bad. I’ll be getting 6 show certificates for next time, going to sell that on ebay.

Ok, where do I go from here?? Still need to go somewhere regardless..

what the F*** !

WHAT THE F !!

What is the F*** is w/ these Airlines!

Very irresponsible !

I'm beyond PISSED! I must have jinxed myself. Now ATA also filed for Chapter 11 on April 2, 2008 in the U.S. Bankruptcy Court ! That means I need to find another 4 tickets for the rest of the group... 13 DAYS LEFT AND THIS SHIT HAPPEN! (Excuse my French!)

Aloha Airlines! - This is no April fool.

=( It’s been hell of a week. Apparently Aloha airlines went bankrupt and since I stop watching the news. My co-worker told me what happen and without them I wouldn’t have taken it so seriously. I brought our tickets on Hotwire; flying out from Oakland to Honolulu with Aloha airlines and back w/ ATA.

I called Dela and they priced one-way ticket for $800 each x3=$2400, but it’s only $650 round trip w/ them. WTF! Then I called United as Hotwire suggested, which pissed the hell out of me… try talking to a machine for a good 20 minutes and then get disconnected. ATA jack up their prices and worst, I was on hold for 35 mins and still no answers. (I figure everyone must be calling them too.)

I brought travel insurance for the 3 tickets and when I called them . They basically told me that the only way they will cover if someone dies! Get sick or stuck while traveling. Airlines bankrupt are not covers. So, I told the lady that I have to kill myself to get a refund? She replied that she wouldn’t suggest me to do that. This is pissing me off big time! To make matter worst, this was the first time I brought travel insurances. Go figure!

Yes, it’s very frustrating! How would you feel if your travel is in 2 weeks and found out part of your flight is cancel. Hotwire keep telling me this and that, they want me to contactthis company that company. Shit! Hotwire should have just contact themselves Dela, United and ATA… They are willing to change the flight but they will charge me $100 per ticket and differences.

I'm sick of it! Just refund my money; after all it's the airline fault! NOT mines!
Yes! I was very pissed last night! I called American Express and just dispute it and booked the fare elsewhere. It would have been cheaper for me to go back w/ hotwire, but morally this is not right. Thank god the others 4 didn’t have Aloha airlines.

Oh well, I’m not going to let this ruin my trip! Even if I have to paid extra for it. After all I deserve it.